I have a whole bunch of stuff I can't seem to reconcile in my head right now. I hope some of what I feel will make its way from my head to the page and thence to your understanding.
Not in reference to any specific thread (and therefore, non-IW) - but just generally - I can see that unpleasant folks have caused all kinds of hurt, in and out of relationships, to good and decent people. Some of the stuff I've read just boggles my mind, and I'm not sure how to deal with it. I come away with a lot of questions.
Like: Who are
these gentlemen? Who the fuck do they think they are? Why are there so many of them, it seems? How do they manipulate others into giving them precious time and energy? Do I know anyone like this? Do I work with them? Might there be a way to tell so I can deny them the time of day?
Most troubling of all the questions is the one I ask myself: why am I so bugged by them? Does it come from genuine compassion for those they have hurt, or - bear with me please - am I actually just pruriently interested in how they have got away with it? Am I just like a "true crime" enthusiast, except with abusers instead of murderers? Should I just leave alone?
Sorry, this doesn't really have a point, I just need somewhere to take out my unfocussed anger rather than focus on people I can't find and maim.
(Yes, I will put away my pale suit of armour now.