How important is psychological manipulation in your rape fantasies—as a rapist or as a victim?
My rape fantasies are quite soft, insofar as they don’t involve violence and degradation (verbal or physical). However, they are very psychologically dark and emotionally complicated—from my choice of fantasy rapist to the type of relationship that I have with him.
My fantasy rapist is obsessive, emotionally damaged, and psychologically unbalanced. Moreover, he doesn’t realize how damaged he is. In my fantasies, he stalks, abducts, rapes, and keeps me in captivity—partly in order to fill a massive hole in his sense of self. Though he is much larger and stronger than I am, I have the psychological advantage, as I am more self-aware than he is, I have the ability to figure out how desperately he needs my approval, and I use that need to manipulate him. However, I also find myself experiencing some degree of Stockholm Syndrome, because my successful manipulation of him makes him genuinely affectionate and responsive to me. I enjoy the notion of having to utilize a degree of psychological gamesmanship in order to navigate the minefield of his emotions and, ultimately, work my way towards freedom.