Ladies: - When you get yourself to orgasm, do you think about yourself having a forced orgasm? Or do you think of being raped/forced bj and he cums? What makes you 'get there'? Do you play the same scene over and over because it works? What is that scene? Is it always you getting raped or do you watch another woman get raped? Do you think of the same person raping you, or does it vary?
I really want to answer this, but to do so I need to get a little outside myself, because Kitty is just one side of me and I try to stick to being Kitty here, but of course when I'm Kitty I deny absolutely that this sort of thing makes me orgasm
So I'm going to talk about the Kitty side, and Kitty-related fantasies and what goes on for me when I'm her (if that makes sense). First-person Kitty throughout, but remember Kitty denies everything
I'll start with female rapist fantasies, because that's what's the hottest. A woman raping me can definitely make me come in the fantasy, but it's not important or even likely to be the point when I come: it's more likely to be part of the build-up, or sketch of the storyline, then I travel back and forth along the timeline as I'm *ahem* wanking. I'm most likely to come when I'm thinking of how she disposes of me afterwards (whether that's dead, abandoned, left tied up somewhere, dumped, or whatever).
With a male rapist fantasy, there's never an orgasm in the fantasy for me. As I've said elsewhere, it's not about my pleasure. I can't picture it that I would come from it, so I don't try. Sometimes it's the same "disposal" point that brings me to orgasm, but usually it's imagining how it feels as he comes inside me, or on me, whatever he chooses. Because that's like the climax of the scene, the most emotionally powerful moment, so I try to have that part of the story in my mind when I get my physical climax as well.
If there's a forced bj involved then it's always the aftermath/disposal/mistreatment that does it, and the disgrace and disgust is like the build-up to that.
The same kind of goes when I picture hentai tentacle rape fantasies: I don't come in the storyline, but because there's no obvious climax of the scene (unless it's not just rape) I basically just replay the horrednous violation over and over: I'm most likely to come while picturing the tentacles forcing their way inside me, as the most powerful emotional element.
I sometimes play an accomplice role, and it's one of the few ways in which I play with Stockholm Syndrome (I have a regular, if infrequent, fantasy where I see how my lover looks at me when he's torturing and raping me and, even though I hate what he does to me, I want to be loved that much; and then I become actively involved in finding him other women and helping him torture them as well because he still looks at me that way when I'm being his willing sadistic helper) so I guess that's watching someone else be raped. But usually it's about me being the victim.
There's a lot of different scenes or storylines I come up with, some of them I revisit over and over (like the accomplice-Stockholm one above) and some are one-offs because of something I've seen online or on telly. Which means that the person varies a lot, and even the same storyline will have different rapists inserted (physically - their personality/motivation remains fairly consistent).