theeeeeeeeeeeeeeere we go.
Being that there was actually a question, I'll go ahead an answer because it was rather interesting.
I do like the darker sides of rape fantasy.
I'm not ashamed to say that when I've trusted another roleplayer enough, I have asked to recreate real life events that have happened with me. I do this only with people I trust and find to be very talented writers in roleplay. Why? Because it makes me feel better. The grittier and more real it feels, the better. Because I have control. I have control over that scene because I'm fortunate enough someone else will let me lead enough on the scenario for me to recreate it. I can back out at any time. I can put up a fight where I hadn't before. I can twist it into something that makes me feel better. And I like that.
I don't think having bad experiences means we should shy away from subjects. In fact, as far as real-life goes, we are the experts on them. Just this evening, @well_hung_jack
and I stumbled on to talking about gangbangs. Anyone who read my survivors post knows I have been on the RL receiving end in a bad way. Did I flinch at the mention of gangbang porn? Naturally. Even when my own fantasies involve gangbangs (and sometimes they very much do. I, in fact, had a RL kidnap/gangbang roleplay) I feel a slight twinge. But that's my thing to deal with. That twinge is mine, and I chose to use it.
For the sake of making my point clear, we'll stick to the gang bang thing.
There are threads about 'sharing your fuckmeat' (giggle). I made a conscious decision to go into that thread for the sake of contributing, even though I was a little low at the time and it wasn't necessarily a subject for me. But I won't insist on going into threads to express my offence of my real-life experience. After all, this site is divided into real and fantasy, and in the expression of fantasy is where we are.
Back to the question, no. I've never been uncomfortable discussing any of my fantasies.
But we could have guessed that based on the fact that @kittyumbrass
greets me in the shoutbox with a katana to the stomach.